Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Time's Fun!

I can't believe that a month from today I will be walking down the aisle of the church in Moravia. Yikes! I feel like it has only been a few months since I announced that I was engaged. I am thankful to say that most everything that we needed to do for the wedding is completed. We have only a few things to get such as my shoes and a gift for Katiann.

We also have to get some other things.

We have hit a few snags such as Laura's dress doesn't fit her right and we had to take the dress that my mom was making for me and send the pieces to Laura.

Our house pretty close to being finshed. Pretty much just the water and a few other things have to be hooked up and then Reagan can take up residency. Yah!

Last Saturday church had a beautiful Shower for Reagan and I. We got a bunch of really nice stuff and I can't wait to use them. I am so excited!

The weather here in East Texas has been crazy. One minute it is freezing cold, the next minute it is record breaking temperatures. The trees are out. Several weeks ago we watched from the window at work as the trees near by bloomed a beautiful pink color. Then a week later we had a freeze. I wonder if the weather might be crazier then NY or even SC! Go figure!

Three weeks from Friday Reagan and I will be headed for NY. I was talking to a Lady from Moravia yesterday who goes to Austin every winter to stay with her daughter and she was saying how she loved to see spring in Texas and then go home again and see spring in New York. I do believe I might just see spring in New York just in time for the wedding.
Please God! I don't really want snow for my wedding. I really want flowering trees.

As the Frog said that sat for a long time on my grandmothers Kitchen window, "Time's fun when you're having flies!"

Thursday, February 26, 2009

2 Months to go!?????

As crazy as it seems I have been here in Texas for the few short months of 6. Yes I have been indoctrinated into Texas life now for the last 6 months. I have two more months to go before I can no longer pull out. Okay so I have already decided that I am going to stay right here. I have put too much time and effort into the wedding and to living here as well as other things.
Our House is almost complete. It sounds as if by next week we will be moving our furniture into our new house which looks like nothing of what it was before we bought it.
I Have a nice light blue kitchen and I am hoping for sunflowers to accent it.
Reagan and I picked out a Chocolate colored table for our dinning room. It is small, but then our dinning room is small too.
We have a very comfy couch that is a tan colored with dark brown leather like cloth on the bottom. Reagan has a blue Lazy Boy recliner and I have a chair almost the same color as the tan couch that is also a recliner. (It has a perfect little hide away on the right arm for putting my writing and books in when I am not using them.) We are also receiving an entertainment center from his parents.
We also have a beautiful queen size bed frame and a dresser (dresser also given to us) for our bedroom.
Our extra bedroom will be converted into an office for Reagan's up and coming business. He has some desks just perfect for the room. Evetually we want a day bed in there so that we can have guests. For now we will wait.
Almost everything for the wedding is prepared. Only the little bits of odds and ends and loose ends needing to be tied up are left. This week was buy plane tickets to NY week. We just have to buy our favors, and other odds and ends of stuff. We will also be printing our invitations this weekend. Roumer has it that tomorrow, Friday the 27th, the invitations will be printed. Maybe we will have them sent out next week. Yay!
As crazy as it seems we have only 2 more months to go. We thought it would never get here, but let me tell you, I am glad it took so long. If it hadn't I wouldn't have had time to do everything I needed to do. I would still be looking for bridesmaids dresses and wondering what we were going to do for the reception.
Here is where I want you all to know that if it weren't for my mom on the other side of the world, I mean country, Half of the stuff I have had to do would never have happened in the first place. She must be super mom or something :) Thanks Mom!
I am actually hoping to get some pictures of our house up here sometime so that you can see what it looks like. I really should give you before and after pictures, It's amazing the difference it makes when you put on a coat or two of paint and in new flooring.
Oh and one extra gloat before I go to all of you fans in the Northeast. How about upper 80's and 90 in February? Pretty nice weather if you ask me after the nasty below freezing weather we have had.

Saturday, January 31, 2009

Never Let Go

Learning the ways of a blind man has been very enlightening for me. There are so many things that I have to do or can't do so that I can make Reagan as comfortable as possible. Once in a while I will do something and Reagan will not like it because he can't see what I am doing and it make him very uncomfortable. But there is one lesson that I have learned and even though I have a tendency of lapsing into forgetfulness once in awhile, I refuse to forget.

Never let go!

If I let go of him, he would soon be lost and disoriented, not really knowing where he was, unless he was in familiar surroundings. He would hold out his hand looking for mine so that I can lead him to where he needs to go.

I never thought of this as an important part of marriage until now. I am seeing too many friends letting go of their partners. One day they and their spouse are loving and caring, and the next day they have been blinded by anger and hate and they do the one thing they should never do, they let go. After they have let go they start wandering around blindly not knowing where they are going and they become even more blinded because they are angry their partner has let go of them. They are lost, disoriented, and hurt and don't realize their partner has been standing next to them the whole time holding out their hand once more, waiting. They never let go in the first place.

"To have and to hold"

That is one of my favorite parts in a traditional wedding ceremony. To have and to hold from this day forward as long as you both shall live. It's a pledge to never again let go. To take gently the hand of your new spouse and to say before God and all your friends that for as long as there is breath in you, you refuse to let anything come between you and cause you to let go.

I have always loved the fact that a marriage is just like Christ and his bride, the church. It says in the Bible that once you have been saved, Christ will take you into his arms and never let you go. As you give your life over to Christ you are saying to him "to have and to hold". Holding on to Christ hand is the most wonderful experience you will ever have. He can lead you to place you can only dream about, and His eyes will never be blinded by fear.

I will always have to hold on to my partners hand. Holding on to his hand makes it easier for me to heal from my hurt. It keeps me from being blinded by my pettiness. I have asked him to do something for me and I really hope my friends will follow my lead. I asked him to never let go. If I try to back away I want him to pull me all the closer to him.

In just a few months I will be saying my vows and in those vows I am going to say the words "to have and to hold" to my husband to be.

Have you let go? If so reach out your hand to were your spouse was when you let go. He's still there. If you both wandered away from each other, ask a friend to guide you back to each other, and when you have taken his hand once more, Never Let Go.

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Recapping 2008. Looking to 2009

I don't know about any of you, but I think 2008 was a definate crazy year. Really and for reals.
A year ago at this time I never thought that I would have done the things I have down or even gone to the place I have gone. I never expected to be where I am right at this very moment. It never in a million years entered my mind that I would be engaged and living in Texas.
A year ago I was just thinking about Reagan. A year ago I was thinking mostly of the Bahamian cruise I was going to go on in the spring.
I can't say that I loved every minute of this year. It was very hard for me to decide whether or not I was supposed to go to Texas or stay in New York. It was over month before I realized it was what I was supposed to do.
Saying goodbye was even harder to do. Saying hello to more family that would one day be a part of me was very special. Not being able to see my nieces grow or even see my niece Emily Grace after she was born in October has been even harder.
All the days when poor Reagan has had to just hold me in his arms and let me cry . . .
Then there are all the good things about this year.
Isabelle Mae being born in March, going to the Bahamas in May, meeting Reagan and getting engaged in June, seeing strange new lands west of New York state and learning to live in Texas in August, Emily Grace being born in October.
All of these things in between the hard days helped to soften the blow of the hard things.
God has really blessed this year. Not every blessing that I see what a fun blessing either. Some blessings don't show up when you are having a good day. Some show up when you least expected or when you are having a bad day. The Lord has given me many.

Looking to 2009!
Wow! Tomorrow is the very last day of 2008. On Thursday we will be trying to remember to put a 9 at the end of the year instead of an 8.
I'm looking forward to and dreading what the year 2009 is going to bring.
On April 25 I am looking forward to becoming a wife. Also looking forward to seeing my family again after 8 months.
I am also looking forward to what God has for Reagan and I in the future.
At this moment we are not really sure what He has planned for our lives. For all we know we may not be in Texas by the end of 2009. If that be the case, we will be going where God wants us to go.
I look forward to it, but I also dread it.
There is sure to be loses of good friends and introductions of new ones. There is sure to be good times and bad times. There will be times when confusion is all there is and times of understanding.
What ever the case may be I do one thing that is never failing and will always be. It is that God is incontrol and He will always be with me no matter what.
A song that I used to love as a child went something like this.
"Don' be afraid. Jesus is watching you in the dark night. He is protecting you. Talk to the Lord. Ask him to make you brave. Jesus will hear when you pray.
Jesus is caring for you. Jesus is helping you too. Jesus is always there keeping you, for he Loves you. Jesus is caring for you Jesus is helping you too. Jesus is with you whatever you do.
You're not alone. Jesus is there with you. He can't be seen, but he is there it's true. He is your friend. He'll keep you in his care, he goes with you everywhere."
Ah! A good song to remember during the year ahead.
Happy 2009 Everyone!

Monday, December 22, 2008

My Crazy life between Thanksgiving and now!

Merry Christmas to all of my friends that are reading this.
My life has been crazy since the last time I wrote. Of course that is nothing really new because my life has always been crazy.
I have a lot to be thankful for this year, but nothing more so then the night before Thanksgiving when Reagan and I were smashed from behind by a truck. Those of you who know me know that I have never been in an accident when I was driving the car so this was a very tramatic time for me. Neither of us were hurt although my car had a smashed in trunk and rear bumper along with a few small dents from the front where I smashed into the car ahead of me.
Right now my life is pretty much going to work every day. Although this past week offically kicked off the beginning of our house renevations. Reagan's Papa Kenneth has come to help Reagan's dad put in our new kitchen and our doors. In the mean time Reagan's mom has been busy scraping the wall paper off the walls. (Steamers are wonderful things for getting tough wall paper off the wall.)
Reagan and I took advantage of the Christmas sales and spent money on the wedding.
Wait how many of you with a show of hands can believe that we have only 4 more months to go!
I am so not ready!
We have our invitations. Yah! Now to the gruling task of picking out who we can invite to the wedding, who we have to invite to the wedding and who would come and murder us in our sleep if we didn't invite them to the wedding. It's really hard when you have enough room in the church for about 150 people.
Reagan and I have a lot of dicissions to make in the next few weeks. Around the beginning of November Reagan lost his job. He has been looking every day for something, but it hasn't been easy. Not only that, but because he has brodened his search from just here in the city we live in he has spread it across the country. There could be a very big possibility that moving is in the forcast. (And we just bought the house too)
We keep having to be reminded that God is in control no matter what is going to happen to us.
Keep us continually in your prayers. We need all the prayers we can get right now.

Monday, November 17, 2008

It's that Time of year again

I don't know about you, but I think this year has gone by really fast. Last year at this time I was trying to figure out how to tell my family about Reagan. As crazy as it sounds, I wasn't even sure what I was going to tell them. I didn't know if they were going to believe me or not.
But even so, we have once again come around to my favorite time of year. This year however it is going to be totally different.
This year I am going to Earth, Texas that is, instead of celebrating it with the Westcott side of the fam.
It going to be very strange, but I can tell you that I am really looking forward to celebrating it with my new family. It is just as big and just as crazy as my other half of the family.
I really love Thanksgiving. I don't really know why. It might have something to do with celebrating it with family althroughout my growing up years. I can't say that I can remember a Thanksgiving I didn't love to go to.
But most of all as I have said in the past, I really love Thanksgiving, because the retailers haven't picked up on to how they can commercialize it. Sure they can sell their turkey's and food for the dinner table, they can even think of nothing else but football, but let me tell you, Thanksgiving doesn't have the same tone that so many other holiday's (Christmas most especially) seem to have developed over the years.
Christmas isn't Christmas anymore, it's Greedmas or Xmas (YUCK!!!!!). Easter isn't Easter anymore it's Bunny day. People find any way they can to make people want to buy buy buy and forget what the real meaning of the season is.
Of course I am not going to stop here with out mentioning my biggest pet peeve of Thanksgiving. Turkey Day! No WAYY! Thanksgiving never had anything to do with Turkey's in the first place. As a matter of fact, if I remember correctly they didn't even have Turkey on the first Thanksgiving it should really be called Seafood day or Deer day, because that it was they ate. How about this one happy Berry day!
See, none of those kinds of sayings work, so why in the world would Turkey Day work.
It's more of a case that a punch of Turkey's got together one day and thought that someone ought to celebrate them so they stole the real meaning of Thanksgiving and twisted it to celebrate themselves. Pooh on them. Theirs a reason the Bald Eagle was made the National bird and not the Turkey like a lot of people wanted.
So to all of you out there who love Thanksgiving as much as I do, Happy Thanksgiving.
For all of you out there who call it Turkey day, Happy Thanksgiving. I don't plan on mincing any words just to make you happy. It was Thanksgiving, it is Thanksgiving, and it always will be Thanksgiving.
Let's all thank God this Thanksgiving that He has helped us through another year. I am sure it wasn't easy for anyone. I know it sure wasn't an easy year for me, but as I told Reagan. "I don't want my life to be easy. If my life was easy I would look back ten years from now and not see myself change. With the Challenges that I know God has put before me this year I know without a doubt that next year at this time I can look back and say I have changed. With the many challenges and hardships I know God will send my way this coming year and can look back at my life a year from now and now that God has changed me and that I have changed for the better."
Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

A Word of Hello

I am exited that I have a day off today. Reagan and I are on our way to check out flooring and other fun stuff for the house. We start our remodeling on Saturday. It is both a very exciting time and very scary all at the same time. I am not really sure what is going to happen through all the remodeling. I do know that I am going to have a whole new kitchen and the walls are going to be painted throughout the house. I also know that doors have to be replaced. It now comes down to what we are going to do about furniture and stuff like that. We have a few things including a washer and dryer, but that is about it. Reagan is going to be living as a minimalist by the end of the year. AKA he is going to have a bed to sleep on in the house.
As the wedding gets closer and closer the more we are both realizing that we need every prayer we can get. We are realizing there is some much more happening to us then just getting married. We need your prayers as we make life changing decisions and attempt to let go of our singleness. It is so easy to sink back into being single instead of doing things as a couple. We know God has His hands in everything we are doing and will lead us where ever it is that He want to take us. It isn't fun to have no control of circumstances. I know because I am a perfectionist and I like things to go my say, but I am learning that I have to let God be in control and to sometimes let Reagan do it his way.